19 May 2008

Voices 19

Spending the day home alone leads someone to thinking a lot. In my case, that's not a good thing.

I have a lot of balls in the air right now, a lot of things on my mind. I really feel like Dali's Galatea. When my sister's looked at this they just saw sperm and eggs, but when I see this I see the epitome of woman: a woman is made up of so many different factors and as I have so many things going on in my life right now, this is how I feel.

I went for a short run this morning, walking more than running. My head wasn't in it but it did feel good to get outside and take in some fresh air. But I also realized just how out of shape I am and with our fitness exam for work coming up in three weeks I'm more than a bit nervous. I need to make a point this week to get out and run, even if it's only for a little bit. I can't keep skipping it like I have been. That's not going to help me in three weeks nor in 20 weeks when I'm again running TC. Shit...20 weeks. That's going to fly by.

I also took my Morty (my Mini) in to get its tire checked. I've had one that's been leaking air for a few weeks now. I went to a place just outside of town and they had it ready to go in about 30 minutes. When I asked them what was wrong the mechanic said, "You had three nails in the tire...well, actually you had four but the fourth one wasn't leaking so we just fixed the other three." Okay. wow. I went to pay for their services and the people working the counter were startled. The guy asked if my ex-boyfriend had been around. Considering my ex is in MN, I don't think he would have anything to do with this (plus we ended okay). But the guy kept saying that finding three or four nails, as I had, in one tire screams out someone pounding them in manually, not an accident like I think it was. So who has it out for me? Huh? Is that you stalker up north? Are you pounding nails in my tire?

I'm also trying to figure out what to pack for my upcoming trips. I have two in the next three weeks and they are both very different. I should have gone shopping today but I didn't. I want to cut my hair but I want to do Locks of Love and I think I have enough to cut, but I'm not positive, so I'm holding off until I'm at my first trip and maybe K can help me. I don't want to do it alone either.

And then there are all the other issues going on in life - family, friends, work - I have a lot of balls in the air, as they say. For one of them I want to just take care of the problem but when I talked it through with my friend Debbie she said I shouldn't finish it the way I suggested because it wouldn't be fair to me. I don't know.

Anyway...it's been a decent day overall. I got my tire fixed though I have to watch it and get a tire ordered and get it completely fixed soon. I ran, which is more than I can say for myself in months. And my cold is almost gone. Things are going to be better soon.

1 comment:

Anonymous said...

One of the guys that my husband is stationed with--his kids actually grew his hair out to waist-long. He looked like a girl and when asked why he was growing his hair out, he said matterof-factly - "I'm growing it out for the kids who have cancer." He said, "I saw something on TV about it."

It was pretty amazing that a little one was doing that! It's amazing that you're doing that, too!