29 December 2006
But it's more than that. It's putting away memories that have been made in my little cupboard below the stairs (i.e. my apartment). It's packing up my life, into small and hopefully manageable boxes for when I get a truck to stack them in and transfer to a new location to start this all over again.
This is truly a moment when I believe that we are constantly part of God's creation - recreating our lives and changing the world. God didn't just make the world and wash his hands of it when God was finished. Nope...God made it and constantly worked through us pathetic sinners to recreate it into something better, and when the shit hit the fan, helped to clean it up and start all over. It's amazing.
And maybe that's what I'm doing. The shit hit the fan and now I'm cleaning it up to start fresh in a new locale. Sort of. I think it was just that my life needed a change. It was time. Maybe even past time, but I think this will be good. And even though I'm packing all my pathetic belongings into boxes to stack and transfer elsewhere, change is good and this is a good thing for me.
27 December 2006
I came home here in the Cities last night to sleep a bit before beginning the intense process of packing, moving and transforming my life. I really feel like I'm entering the Federal Witness Protection Program or something. I'm going to have to change my address, my phone number, my email, packing up everything I own and moving to a place where I have friends but they are fewer in number. Truly this city has become home for me over the past 6 years. I have family here - not blood relatives, but the other kind of family: the family you know you can call on to go grab a beer, or just shoot the shit with without feeling like you may be judged for your actions. A family where you were chosen to be loved by them...not because they have to.
It's kind of intense right now. I find myself in a stage of bipolar behavior. I go from ecstatic moments of "yay I have a new job which I have wanted for 10 years and I can't wait to start! YAY!" to "holy shit, I'm leaving my friends and a place I truly love and am going to miss more than I thought." I go from bawling to rejoicing. From tearing up at the thought of leaving to tearing through papers and throwing crap I've collected while I pack.
What a freakin' roller coaster. The next couple weeks are going to be intense. I know I can make it through, but holy crap, this is going to be exciting and rough.
23 December 2006
20 December 2006
19 December 2006
Man, tomorrow. That's just scary. I know what's happening tomorrow and I'm excited and scared and nervous all at the same time. It's a big step for me if what I'd like to happen would happen. I guess we'll see how things go. You just never know. Especially since the other is still a possibility too.
Okay, I know I'm talking in code here...sorry. I'll write more later when I know more. For now, I'm just freaking out a bit myself since Christmas is Monday and I still have gifts to find for relatives and gifts to finish for others. And cookies to bake. And flat bread to make. And krumkake to roll. O! the pressure of it all! :)
So anyway, Merry Christmas, if you're so inclined.
18 December 2006
17 December 2006
But so far it hasn't been bad. I've had breakfast with fun people, I've had supper with other fun people, I've helped a friend move many, many heavy boxes to her new apartment, I've relaxed and read books and started knitting a blanket for a friend. Life is good.
Speaking of books, JB gave me this book and Brenda gave me this book, of which I've almost finished the latter. Yeah, it's not on my list, but when people loan me books I want to read them right away so I can return them. I haven't been so good with that in the past. In fact, I think I still have a book of Sean's I need to return to him. Hmm.
Anyway, the book from Brenda has been very interesting. Upon my initial reading of the series, I found a lot of Christian-like set-ups, as well as Greek Mythology and other just basic world views in life. Granger points out these quite well, but also steps into a few other thoughts I hadn't considered. It really kicks out from under their feet the whole "Harry Potter is evil" phenomenon that was occurring early in the series publication days. It only goes through book 5, and now I want to reread those first books to see if I can see the match-ups he's made, and then read book 6 to see if I can see the patterns still occurring.
So so far, that's what I've been doing. I know all you readers in internet land are really excited about this. Whatever. I just didn't want you to think I had disappeared due to the Rapture or something. Oh and I have an interview on Wednesday, for which I'm excited and nervous and excited again. I'm hoping it will go well, though it would mean an entirely new life (both in the workplace and in general location of life) would begin. It's kind of fitting that all this is happening during Advent, the season of waiting and preparing for the coming of Christ. I've been waiting too...and maybe if this goes well my life will begin again anew.
I'll be back in the meantime and will fill you all in. Until then, enjoy life!
13 December 2006
Okay, so Sarah says I can have unproductive days, but seriously, this was pathetic!!! This is not a good start to the vacation. I have so much I need to get done and I.DID.NOTHING!!!
Hopefully, tomorrow will be better. Cross your fingers, folks!
12 December 2006
Cate mentioned a while ago, again, the From the Stacks challenge. Last week before I left for my faboo weekend, I picked out 5 more books to read (I'm already in the middle of 3 but apparently they don't count). So here's my list, in no particular order:
- Generations of Faith by Carl G Eeman (K had recommended this to me last year before she moved and I haven't read it yet!)
- Charming Billy by Alice McDermott (this is on my shelf and I don't know why, so I figure I'll read it and hand it off to mom)
- Pursued by Grace by Jim Klobuchar (found book in Lost and Found, so I thought, why not?)
- Taking Jesus Seriously by John Cowan (this was recommended to me by Ian and I love Ian so I'm sure this will be interesting)
- Baudolino by Umberto Eco (I had started this a while back when Jay was reading a lot of Eco books and I haven't finished it, so maybe I can now)
Anyway, I hope to come back here to visit on occasion while I'm on vacation. But just in case, I hope you all have a fabulous holiday season!
10 December 2006
Yeah, she's older than me. Yeah, for a long time we lived in basically two different worlds (she was in college when I was in 1st grade). Yeah, she's pretty cool.
But I've never really thought of myself as jealous of her (except for her skinniness and beauty - she is the looker in the family). I always just saw her as someone I looked up to, someone I admired and someone I really respect and love.
But tonight I realized I'm also jealous of her. She has things I want. She is good at things I'm scared I'd fail. She is an amazing woman.
She has a family - a wonderful, loving, caring family. She is completely in love with her husband, anyone could see it. She is an incredible mom - giving and demanding respect from her kids who love her a ton. She is so 'put-together'. In a million years, I don't think I could ever be as together as she is.
And I'm jealous.
I know I'm coming up a few years behind her in all this, but I wish I was now where she is now. My sister is an amazing woman.
09 December 2006
08 December 2006
This weekend my friend Justin will help a church become a church, a whole church and nothing more than a church, so help them God.
Justin helped begin a mission start church in MI last year about this time and they are aptly named
When J-man started all this over a year ago he invited me to be a prayer partner with the church: I, Moe, agree to pray daily for
I have been proud to be a silent partner with this church. It’s amazing to me what God is doing through my friends on a daily basis. I decided this fall to offer my tithing to Advent to help them and to help me feel even more connected. I can’t wait to visit sometime and see Advent in person (and Justin...I miss you, man!).
If you’re the praying sort, I invite you to pray for Advent this weekend as they sign the charter and become even more whole as a church and community.
Soon I’ll be on vacation. Like a real vacation from work where I’m not off guarding things or pretending to be on vacation to just stock up comp time for later. No, I’ll be on a real vacation: away from here, away from the computer (sort of, I’ll probably hit the library a few too many times), and away from email (that’s going to kill me).
It’ll be good. I’ll get to bake, knit, shop, relax, watch cheesy 80’s movies until my eyes ache, and just have a jolly good time.
BUT vacation doesn’t happen yet. I have to wait a few more days.
I think my mind is already gone though.
07 December 2006
Last night was great. I got to spend time with my fabulous friends JB, Megan, Megan’s Chris, Emily, Kevin and Kevin. Kevin’s Sarah was supposed to be there, too, but she wisely opted to rest up for her important approval interview today (and she was approved, naturally). But much Top Chef was watched, cookies and chips were consumed, and beers were coerced by me from others.
Top Chef is an interesting show and I’m sure most of you out there in TV-land know what it is, but this was a new one for me. I don’t have cable so watching shows on stations like Bravo, TV Land, Showtime, Comedy Central, TBS, HBO, etc., just doesn’t happen in my world. I live with six stations, my rabbit ears and a tiny TV.
So anyway, Top Chef was pretty cool and since over the past year I have become “miss baker”, this was very interesting. I’m so not creative to come up with what they do. I admit, I yelled at the TV and wondered why people were still competing who just didn’t seem to be very together, as it were, but really deep down I’m jealous. I wish I had their abilities, drive, skills to do and go after what they want.
And until I figure out what I’m going to do with my life, I’m going to use their recipes and start practicing on my own cooking skills.
06 December 2006
Our school is testing a free newspaper program here this week and next. Our paper choices are the USA Today, Pioneer Press and New York Times. It’s been interesting. I don’t normally read any of these. It’s been interesting to skim them, though I haven’t had time to really sit down and read them. Maybe tonight. I'll let you know my preference. Eventually there will be two of the three here for students to read. I'm curious to see which win out.
05 December 2006
Over the last few months I have been working extra hours…mostly because I don’t have students who can come to work at my normally scheduled end time of 4:30 due to classes or CPE, and today is not unlike the others.
But today, I am really feeling the effects of working 9.5 hours straight. My luncher was sick and so I’ve been stuck here straight through. Now normally working at a desk for almost 10 hours wouldn’t be a big deal, but I deal with people all day long, and I’m trapped…I can’t leave so people come to stay and chat. Most are respectful of my time and work I have so they don’t stay long, but some know that I can’t go anywhere so they stay and chew my ear off - for almost 40 minutes (of course this is the exception to the case and he has mental issues and telling him he has to go doesn't always work). I have to be hospitable so I can’t tell them off, and faking work doesn’t work either. I have, at times, picked up my cell phone and called the phone so I have to answer it but I’m not clever enough to come up with a story line. I should have one written up I could read.
So now I have a headache, my fingers are cold, and it’s unusually bright over my desk today. Odd. But Standoff is on tonight and my goal is to clean off my coffee table so at some point this week I can put up my Christmas Tree. Yay!
First – sorry to tag you, Cate. You just seem so cool and I wanted to know more. But please don’t feel obligated.
Second – me being me, I woke up with the ultimate weirdness of me and in the last four hours since I have completely forgotten it. So, too bad for you but writing…
Holy cow…it just came back to me. That was weird. (Can I count that too?)
So my ultimate weirdness, for which Dave and Rolf continue to make fun of me, is my way of reading certain books. Since I was little I have had this ‘thing’ when reading book series. If I start a series in hardcover, I have to finish it in hardcover. If I start a series in paperback, I have to finish in paperback. I cannot read one of the books in hardcover and buy the paperback later to keep for the collection. That doesn’t work. I have to read it in the published format I began in.
I know this is crazy. And it really makes no sense to many, well most people, and really I don’t know why I am this way. But all my Harry Potter books are hardcover. Most of my Stephen King books are hardcover, except for the
And now the Song and Ice series I’ve been promoting is the same way. I started it in paperback because that’s what Dave got me for Christmas last year. And since I started that way, I will finish that way. Book 4 just came out in paperback a few months ago but last spring Rolf kept trying to get me to read his hardcover version or (worse yet!) listen to his audiotapes of it. (Don’t get me started on that one.)
I just can’t do it. I don’t know why, but I can’t. So alas, I’m trying to take my time with this book because book 5 isn’t even finished yet, let alone published, and I’d hate to have to wait another year before I can read that one.
04 December 2006
I've been tagged by Bethany. And, like
Here are the rules: Each player of this game starts with the "6 Weird Things about You." People who get tagged need to write a blog of their own 6 weird things as well as state this rule clearly. In the end you need to choose 6 people to be tagged and list their names. Don't forget to leave a comment that says 'you are tagged' in their comments and tell them to read your blog.
So six weird things about me...
- I put a ton of pepper in my ketchup if I happen to be eating fries (seriously, see me taking the top of the pepper shaker and pouring). And I actually prefer to add mustard to that mix as well. It adds a little kick.
- Everyday I carry a black bag with me to work with papers and files in it, but I rarely open it during the day to take anything out.
- According to my dearest friend, I apparently am very fire-hazard conscience. Not sure what that means…I mean, seriously: I live in a death trap.
- I tend to find things “funny”. Not that they are, but that seems to be my comment for anything and everything. “Oh, she had neck surgery.” “Funny.” See? Yeah, I don't know why.
- I will listen to a song, sometimes a CD, over and over and over again until I bore of it. Currently I’m listening to Lily Allen.
- I love making lists, so much that I will make a list to remind me to make a list.
Wait suddenly I have more…here are another six.
- I eat M&Ms in a color sequence: Brown, Blue, Red, Green (sometimes the last two interchange to be green, red) then Yellow, and
last, because they’re the best. Orange
- To add to that, I have been known to buy a large bag of the multi-colored M&Ms and divide them into baggies so I could eat them in the proper order.
- I carry my lunch in a Victoria Secret bag and I work at a church school.
- I don’t celebrate my birthday publicly. Last year I made cupcakes all alone in my apartment. It was the best day.
- When I was younger I knew I wasn’t the prima donna type for any theatrical production I was in so I would try to opt for the male roles. I succeeded in playing a pirate (a friend’s mom actually thought I was a guy and that I was more masculine several of the actual men on stage with me. My name was
Rutherford.) and a brother to Joseph (my name was Gad).
- I have this thing for numbers, dates, years. In college I was called Calendar Girl because they would ask me questions like, “When was the first Murder Mystery party at The House?” and I could rattle off that it was Oct. 8, 1993.
Okay, I have to stop or everyone will know my secrets.
If I tagged you and you have a "no tag" rule, I'm sorry!
03 December 2006
So today was a busy day, even though it wasn't which I know doesntt make sense but it does. I worked on some paperwork for the office today and filled out another app that I mailed tonight.
And I was told I'll be working Saturday too. I don't mind. It'll be good to get a little extra cash before the holidays and it's a great work day opportunity. I'll be working with the media which is always fun and another opportunity to hone my PA skills. I love my job, I just wish I could do it ALL the time (hint hint, RC). :)
I'm writing this while I wait for my LT to finish proofing some of my work. He's at home with the kids and I'm still at work. (I'm posting this later than it actually is.) I think me and Linda are the only folks around anymore. I like working here when it's quiet like this. I can concentrate a bit better. My LT doesn't understand that when it's a paper month and I kick him out so I can work. He's constantly trying to get me to leave on time, which is a valid cause, I know, but I can get so much more accomplished when I'm not getting interrupted every five minutes. The next 3 months will be good (sorry LT!) since he'll be at training and I can schedule my time a bit better. The new sergeant and I can handle things quite nicely. It'll be a bit of a flashback to the days with KB and I were doing all the work on our own each month for a few years in a row, or the few months when KB was out with Levi and I was basically on my own (even with the two folks in the shop).
I had a fun experience today thought when RC took us to see his memorial museum. He's a collector of all things good and fun from years gone by and this museum is dedicated to Boy Scout memorabilia. I keep trying to talk him into setting up a blog and buying a scanner and digital camera so he can track and share the rest of his stuff, but that hasn't worked yet. I'm going to succeed sooner or later. I don't think he understands that I am a stubborn, red-headed, Norwegian-German-Swedish woman and one way or another this will work. Maybe I should tell him about the blog ads option so he could supplement his income and hobby... hmmm...
Anyway, the museum was super cool and there's still more to be put in. I'll have to take my nephews there if they ever come out this way. They're really into scouting out East so this might be up their alley (and maybe they could score time with the official collector). Ideas, ideas, ideas.
So in the time I've been sitting here I think I've checked our voice mail about 8 times and I know there haven't been any calls because I've been sitting here too. But it's fun. LT programmed one of our speed dials to the voice mail number and it sounds like a familiar nursery rhyme. It's great. It's kind of sad but the highlight of our day is checking voice mail on speaker phone and hearing that. Man, we need a life.
02 December 2006
- Sleeping on my stomach for the first time in decades
- Finishing the notams this morning instead of tomorrow
- Printing in Color!
- Getting the needle out... wait, what?
- Talking with RRR - that man makes me laugh my ass off
- Deer sticks, mmmm
- Hearing my mom's latest romance story
- Spending a quiet evening at home
01 December 2006
There’s no more NaBloPoMo. I’m really sad. For now I’m going to leave up my Yoda. I did participate and I made it through. Here’s my winner button. Once JB comes back I’ll coerce her to help me get it on my sidebar again. (I really need to learn more about design.)
But okay…so to day is the first day of December and Mom Nature is showing the world she can make things colder than snot. And thanks to Papa Time, today is a Friday ending one of the not so great weeks of my existence.
I must. I MUST make a concerted effort to be happier this month. The last few months have been pretty icky on so many levels and I need to change that for my own sanity, as well as yours if you're reading this. I can make it through all these changes. I’m a strong, confident woman who does not need to smoke. I can be happy.
This month will bring about changes in my life – either I will have a new job in this town, a new job elsewhere or I’ll be still in my current location but in a different position. Whatever decision is made (either via selection or just sheer determination from me) I will be strong and stand by that decision and go with it.
It’ll be interesting. I promise to my faithful 5 readers to be happier, less vengeful, and I’ll try to occasionally be funny.