08 April 2008

Hmmm...

I'm not sure I like this letter theme. I'm having trouble wrapping my head around it. I'll have to work on that a bit.

For now, I just need to ramble. Feel free to stop reading if you'd like. It'll be a lot of self-deprecation and just some idiotic statements, I'm sure. Who knows? I haven't written it yet...the words are still flowing out my brain and down to my fingertips.

Day two of our meeting ended early, which was very good. At the end Boss1 shook my hand, thanking my for all my hard work and then said he'd see me later. It was nice to be thanked, even though I know he appreciates my work.

Our drive back was very pleasant. KC and I bonded a little more. She and her hubby just moved back here so she's kind of in the same boat I am...all their friends are back at their previous home, kind of like a lot of mine are back in the cities or spread out across the world.

Anyway, today was a beautiful day - no wind, perfect weather. It was an absolutely perfect spring day. Did I go running? Hell, no. I fell asleep on my couch when I got home. Granted I did have a bit of a late night and early start this morning - going to bed after 11 and woke up to the hotel staff stomping down the hallway delivering papers and bills at around 4 - then tossed and turned until I finally got up.

But there must be something seriously wrong with my psyche that I have a gorgeous day in front of me, hours off from work, and what do I do? I sleep on my couch. Tomorrow I'll want to run and I have to be at work and it'll be a little windier than today, and knowing me that will trigger a great opportunity for excuses and I won't get a run in tomorrow either.

What the hell is wrong with me? K once suggested I go to a counselor or therapist to work out some of my issues after the DLE experience and I never did. Maybe I just need to go to get my head in a right place.

Some good tonight - I did make up my chicken/pasta meal so I have lunch and supper set up for the rest of the week. That's good because otherwise I would probably be eating out or just eating chips and popcorn. The chicken I had tonight was quite yummy. I need to eat more protein.

See, I'm rambling. If anyone is still reading here, I'd be shocked. I have so many trains of thought going through my head right now and I want to write them all at once but I'm losing focus. Hmm. Maybe I just need more sleep, and a return to normalcy. Tomorrow I get to go back to work. That's a good thing since I know my task list is huge. I have great plans to finish a lot of things this week. Let's hope I can.

Okay...I'm going to stop rambling now. Maybe I'll figure out something better for tomorrow. I'm sure I will since tomorrow night is Adult Ed and if it's anything like BigO predicted last week, I'm sure it's in for a bumpy ride.

If you made it this far, I truly commend you.

2 comments:

Karen Elizabeth said...

Sara! You sound so much like me- knowing I should go out running but falling asleep instead. Having the desire to run, but not actually acting on it. I cannot tell you how many times I've gone through that. I've given up running this year. I was trying to get 2 runs in a week. But now with my new schedule and my new apartment, (and all the walking it requires) I've been feeling too exhausted to do anything but finish my work and pass out. Boo. Maybe we can go running this summer? A long summer evening run? That sounds great.
karen

Kat said...

I read your ramble! Do I get a medal and a T shirt? =P
An improved diet and lots of running - maybe some vitamins - are probably the best therapy you could ask for. =)
xo