So last night I'm randomly surfing facebook because that seems to be what I do anymore. K&E - are you really sure this was a good idea for me? Seriously?
Anyway, an old friend IM'd me and asked if I was feeling better and something about how earlier in the week i felt like fb was waxing my feelings and something about exs stalking me. I don't recall this conversation at all. I've been sick the last week anyway and on some nice antibiotics, and during that time I have had a lot of "catch-up" conversations with friends...some all at the same time - damn chat.
I told him this last night and said that I don't remember all my conversations, that fb tends to be a way for me to unwind at the end of the day because my work days are really intense - especially lately as we're gearing up for an inspection. I lamented that I used to read a lot at night which seemed to stimulate my brain more but since I've gotten on facebook I haven't read a book at all.
Well, he got pissed because he doesn't think I care anymore. He wrote me an email this morning, parts of which said: "The fact that you do not remember conversation you should not have them." and "I will not be bother your mental relaxation, detox time or whatever it is that you called it, you are right you should start reading again that way it does not involve other people."
WTF? Because I don't remember one conversation I'm suddenly shit and shouldn't interact with people? I'm sorry...do other people remember every single freaking conversation they have with people?
I really have enjoyed facebook, but it's more my frustration with me and not being able to control my new addiction to it, because every night this week I have logged on to see what's going on and what people have been up to. I don't want to be that way. I like to keep in touch with people, but this almost feels like keeping tabs on people. And there are a lot of people I care about and want to keep up with, but I can't remember every stinking word that is passed between us. And if this is going to be the reaction then maybe it's time I just stop.